Life of a Big Dreamer

Why is it that teachers feel since spring break is around the corner they decide to give the most work ever? in all my classes I either have a test or a project due. I’m so tired of doing work! why cant teachers just do it for us? i really don’t want to come to school anymore there’s no point, i don’t want to go to college so school is a waste of my time. I hate coming to school i used to look forward to it now i don’t want to come. Glad spring break is next week I’m going to LA and Santa Barbara with the best people ever!! but before that i have a softball game somewhere far wish me luck!

next friday is the rally, i hate that if im not there then noone knows what to do. i hate that i get stuck planning it out fully, why doesnt anyone have passion for ASB anymore, my president basically dipped on me, my close friends stop coming to 0 period so when i turn to someone for support noone cares. what do i do? rally in a week and ASB has $0 how does that work? i guess im stuck figuring it out. because im not just going to give up and say screw it because thats what leaders do right? i dont need anyone to help, or do i? ill try my hardest but theres more stress but on a brighter note san jose this weekend and santa cruz on saturday. The life of a leader.

do you realize when your having a bad day you kind of forget to smile? you just go about your day waiting for it to end. everyone tells you hi and you kind of have that tone of voice like oh yeah hey whats  up. i know this feeling all to well because lately ive been so busy i begin to stress and i forget to smile. we had a task for 0 period give someone a letter of appreciation that you  havent really told thank you to. so i got a letter from one of my good friend at first i was like uhh ok? i began to read it and started to smile because she said sometimes my hugs mean the world to her when she is feeling down. she said over the past year she has seen my smile go away and she doesnt like it because of the person i have become. as i read this it was true. i realized that when i get busy i shut down and dont like to communicate with people i began to go in my world. i realized i shouldnt do this because you never know whos day you can make with your smile.

“Be the change you wish to see in the world” is what Gandhi once said. Yesterday we had challenge day a way for me and my peers to get know each other but also for us to get to know the adults. To see that no matter who you are you are not alone. That no matter what anyone has ever told you, you are capable of anything. It was a very life changing experience, it opened up my eyes to different views and to see people from a different perspective. It wasn’t about how old you are, where you came from, what color your skin is, or what anyone else has ever said to you. It was about if you wanted to see change you were there to make it happen. You were going to reach out to a ton of people and give a random person a hug, or a compliment. This taught me to just smile more often don’t judge people and actually get to know them.

For me a 5 hour school day never happens, a normal day would be in between  11-12 hours. From 0 period to 7^th period right to practice my school day never ends. If you’re a high school junior worrying about how you’re going to pay for junior prom and the next years expenses as a senior, you’re bound to get a job. Whether it’s stocking shelves for target or flipping burgers at McDonalds every dollar counts and any money you can get is great. As you can see my life is busy. It’s sometimes so hard to manage school, work, and softball. It’s sometimes hard for time management; I have to choose what is more important to do first. For example last week I had training for work Monday through Wednesday but I also had practice during those times. Being that I needed money I had to drop softball for 3 days and not play in the Friday game.

A high school junior, high hopes and big dreams. She walks through the halls of Hiram Johnson wondering what she will do with her life. She has many dreams but gets discouraged easily. As every other person she walks by she’s a student but what separate’s her from her peers she is very involved in school. She is so involved in school that she sometimes gets overwhelmed. Overwhelmed to the point where she loses sight of her dreams. But when reality hits she gets right back on track. How do I know so much about her? Because I am her and I have big dreams.